Thursday, December 18, 2014

the last will and testament of sgt. pepper

 
   If you are reading this it can only mean one thing...

   Sgt. Pepper is Sgt. Pepper no more.

   As part of my final adieu I have included some thank you's, some requests, some things you should know about me, and some last words I hope to be remembered for. It has been a beautiful feat writing as Sgt. Pepper but its time to be me, the real me. McKay Utley.

   ∆ Thank you for reading my work. All of you. And for taking the time to write your works yourself. It has been a privilege to be able to read your poetry, thoughts, and other posts.
   ∆ Thank you Nelson for being the teacher that you are. And for getting my creative juices flowing.
   ∆ Thank you Paris for letting me travel and treating me well. Thank you for teaching me so much.


   My final requests to you is not to forget Paris, don't forget to be yourself, and don't forget to live. I know that sounds a bit cheeky but far too often we go through life in a series of knee-jerk reactions and we end up as absurd people we never dreamed of becoming.



   Some things you should know about me

  ∆ If you really knew me you would know that I have an obsession with the man in the moon.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know I drive a car that closely resembles a potato.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know that I like simplicity.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would agree that I have been born in the wrong time area and my heart belongs to the 50's
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know that I have a gypsy soul.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would think I am obsessed with the mountains. You wouldn't be wrong
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know how bad I am at taking care of plants and cacti, but it doesn't stop me from still buying them.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know that it's really hard for me to live in Alpine, Ut. as I am not active in church.
  ∆ If you really knew me you would know how obsessed I am with girls that can pull off the messy bun look
  ∆ If you really knew me you would see me for who really am and not the person you assume me to be.


   
   In the beginning I was scared to death of posting my works. Now looking back, it was a hell of a good thing for me. When I am old and grey I know I will look back at this experience and remember all these blogs, my pen name,  Paris, , my fat journal, and "THE YEAR OF NO MISTAKES". Thank you for traveling alongside me.

   Sgt. Pepper may not hide my identity anymore but I will always belong to The Lonely Hearts Club.


                               -Sgt. Pepper


  

Sunday, December 14, 2014

6 ft holes

   it's brutal.

   it's lonely.

   it's all so surreal.

   it's a nightmare where being pinched doesn't wake you up.

       ....being pinched is nothing compared to what i
              feel right now.

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   we keep filling in those holes that the world has dug for you because we cant imagine living where      you are 6 ft in one.

   i have blisters from the shovel and bruises on my knuckles from the fights but i will not stop.

   i will continue to fight these many fights and fill in these holes until i am lowered into one myself.

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   but in the meantime, i will be here.

   giving my everything to ensure that you are here too.


please dont go, please dont go. i love you so, i love you so.